Yep that is exactly what i though you were saying
Now let's try to tease the reality of your meaning, which incidentally i totally agree with, away form the words in which you said it.
Talking here now just about these words, "now", "i", "you", "me", "they", "it" are, as you know, indexical ... in that they actually are used by people to refer to many many things ... but each usage only refers to one particular thing. Strange though, "i", and "me" (unlike the other indexicals in my list) only refer to one thing ... though of course that thing varies by who speaks the word. In that sense i find it a peculiar indexical. I find that peculiar indexical usage totally reflects the perdicament I experience as I experience my self. I think that is pretty kewl, don't you ?
The question that i asked is whether consciousness is exactly that same way? Is it indexical like "it" or "they" ... or does it refer to only one unique thing ever like the word "I" ?
Now let me see if i can get out of the plane of just the language and talk about our real experiences ... er, notwistanding that i will have to use language to do it
I think, just like you (i presume), that i experience my I, my ego, my self best and most vividly in the now as i focus on myself and shut up all other distractions. I am there now as i am conscious. (LOL ... i had to write that last sentence and then go back and make it so afterwards ...LOL). So far everything i said is, i truly think, totally in agreement with how you would think as well. If it is not, could you tell me specifically where i have deviated from the way you see that same topic?
Now comes the pesky part. And you are just going to have to trust me that i am being totally honest here. All of my experiences of myself *are* different. Some of them are quite similar. But i would be lieing to you if i said that i can believe that they are all experienceing the same thing.
Ok, now comes the part that might even startel you
. I *believe* that your experiences are exactly the way you describe them to me ... where each of your experiences of your I are identical and that you experience them identically. Now, of cours i cannot know your experience, i can only imagine it ... yet based upon everything you have said and done ... i am extremely sure that i have imagined it correctly. Have I?
Now you may judge my experience to be shallow ... or confused. But that is just your judgement ... nothing really to do with me. Sometimes i even miss that unique continuity for myself ... others times i use and glory that my consciousnesses are usually quite different from each other.
Me, i actually think it is quite kewl
indeed that we are so different there. Don't you?